I sometimes worry that my mind is losing its edge due to severe apathy. I find myself increasingly struggling to find focus, and also I notice that I miss things which I never used to before. I guess its a struggle to maintain the dichotomy between approaches to one's personal and professional lives. Its not as easy as flipping a switch, at least not initially. Looks like I need to find a way to create that dichotomy, for if not my professional life, which has so far been the inadvertent focus of my existence more or less, will suffer.
It really never ends. You'd think the less you want the easier things would become. You'd expect being someone who expects little, if nothing else would at least be able to go about his life in peace. Apparently not. Apparently, even the apathy comes at a price. The question is whether that price is negotiable, and if not...am I willing to pay it? And if I'm not......where does that leave me?
